It’s funny how a color, an animal, a song, a movie can
suddenly bring back all these different memories and emotions. Sometimes they
are so painful. It’s like someone punched you in the stomach, is tying knots,
and you lose your breath. You try to run from these memories, to push them deep
down in you or out, as far away as they can go. You’ll do everything in your
power not to think about them and it actually might start to work. But, then
suddenly one day you’re minding your own business, on your morning commute, and
one stupid song comes on and everything comes crashing down again.
“You can erase someone from your mind, but getting them out
of your heart is another story.” I believe with my entire heart that that is
true. I think that once that love has been there and established, real love,
cannot fade. Run all we want. Fight all we want. Deny all we want. It will
eventually catch up with us. Until that happens we will just have to either
accept that’s how things are or live with a spotless mind, praying that those
memories won’t find their way back into your thoughts*
